Destiny

He went off wandering to some distant place,

Incapable of worrying about himself,

He was so lost in the world that he believed in,

He didn't even notice the actual world.

The actual world that was so cruel to him,

Trampled him and toppled him to eternal rest,

But he was yet to see this realm,

Yet to pull the plug on his whole belief system.

And there he lived his life in a dream,

Uncertain of what is coming his way,

But very sure that whatever he has ever thought about,

Was gonna be true... It was gonna be worth the wait.

Moonstruck

I stood there, where the cliff held still,

Where the waves kept splattering onto him,

And he just kept still,              

No matter the pain,

No matter how downhearted it was,

He just kept still.

And I stare at the cliff and ponder upon myself,

How much love would one need?

To keep rooted to the spot?

After all he has to go through?

And that’s when I realized,

How lucky he was, to live amongst that serenity,

How lucky he was to experience that splendid aurora,

To experience the ornate tenebrosity of the sky,

And to feel the kiss of the tranquil sea breeze.

I had been seeing it wrong all this time,

Maybe he never cared about the splattering so much,

Maybe he was just lost in the surreal atmosphere,

Maybe he was so in love with the vicinity,

To even care about what was going on in the world.

Earthquake in Nepal; From a commoner's journal

                                       So I was having my usual Saturday lunch with the T.V. on high volume. Dad and mom were in their room, mom putting dye on my dad's unevenly white hair, and grandpa was busy getting his power nap in my room. When suddenly, my glass of water started to vibrate in an uneven tone. Then out of nowhere, I hear someone outside the house shouting "BHUICHAALO!!!". Then mom and dad hustled everyone out of the rooms. I ran along, trying to get down the stairs when the bigger earthquake-shock hit us. I was trying desperately to get down the stairs while I was being pushed chaotically sideways. I looked back and saw dad and mom holding grandpa by his arms and trying to go down the stairs too. So I decided to jump the stairs and open the door to the backyard. I took the leap and luckily I opened the door just in time they got down from the stairs. I pushed the three of them out the door and went outside...

                                       The view was terrifying outside. Everything was going to and fro. The noise everything made that moment, still haunts me. We looked up to the house and strangely enough, to all of us, it looked as though the house would fall upon us. So, I pushed everyone again to the alley, ran forward and unlocked the front door. Everyone in our neighborhood was out of their houses by that time. People were screaming and crying and we were so terrified! I had never felt so helpless... Minutes later the internet came back and we started receiving the news from everywhere. The valley was in ruins... We were in ruins. Everything important to us was brought down to rubble. So many people were trapped in those buildings. Everything was out of place. I was choking and couldn't speak at all for half an hour or so. Our neighbors were tearing up, kids were crying with bemused expressions on them and all of us had extreme terror in our hearts.And I just couldn't stop wondering. Why are we being punished? What had we done to deserve this? Why has everything been taken away from us? All we wanted was peace. Was that too much to ask for?

Blatant appeal to vanity!

I just want someone with whom I can be myself,
Someone with whom I can be the weird devil(that I am),
Someone with whom I don't have to worry about being awkward
because she is too, and we can marinate in our awkwardness together,
Someone with whom I can do all the crazy things out the top of my head
and not give a crap about the people judging you,
Is it too much to ask for?
  
 I just want someone with whom I can talk to all night

and still feel like I left out on something to talk about,
I just want someone who gets irritated in the most sweetest of ways
when I keep bugging her with all these weird talks,
I just want someone who understands all the stupid things I say,
be that something from a TV show or from a song,
Because she watches and listens to them too!
Is it too much to ask for?

I just want someone who takes my puerile actions
As something that comes with me,
I just want someone who nods,
Even when every other person around me is confused,
I just want someone who reads this and understands me.
Is it too much to ask for?

And even though everyone one persists,
That it indeed is too much to ask for,
I still believe, that "THAT SOMEONE" exists,

Because when I finally do find her,

No one in the world will love her more than me.

    

You!

The dark sky, with them glimmering stars all over,
Making me ponder upon what not,
Why are the stars so beautiful yet so very saddening?
Why do I feel so blue?
Why am I being such a scumbag?
But mostly it just makes me think of you.

The people around me, with their extraordinary normalcy,
Making me think of what not,
Why is everyone so busy?
Why is everyone so distant?
How are people so stupid and selfish all at the same time?
But mostly how astonishingly you differ from these infidels.

The big name people, with their pretentious crap,
Making me cudgel my brain about what not,
How are they so self centered?
How can they not care of the world beyond themselves?
How are they the "newsmakers" yet the most annoying people?
But mostly how perfect you are, and how you deserve it better than all of these goofbags!

SHIT happens!

So I was asked by a smarter person to start making a good image before I head out. He told me I need to create a good image for the people around me before I leave so that they remember the better part of me. And hence I have been working on it. But this is pretty hard for a guy who has a complicated image in people's mind. The hardest people to work this on are your parents because trust me, however hard I try to be very nice in front of them... Something ridiculous  happens.
Like the other day, I was helping out my dad the whole day and he was pretty happy. And then he decides to involve me in his office work late night, which I had very little interest in. He was doing his work and explaining me what he was doing and how "the system" worked and it was very boring... I was getting very drowsy and all. And just when my eyes shut for like 5 or 8 seconds, he saw me dozing off (which is very shocking because I swear he wasn't looking at me the whole time). Then he was totally bummed about it and asked me to go to sleep.
Now my intentions were not that bad, you see. I was just trying to be a friend because it was very late and he was working all alone. I thought maybe he could use some company but no... It doesn't work out! However, I am glad to tell you that I will not be giving up yet. I haven't done much for my folks, and now I have this one chance to be a nice guy and I am not screwing it up! Until then however, Sheerio!

The wait

So I took the first step to following the dream... I am at the test centre waiting for them to call my name. And I had some spare time so why not write about it :D Everything from here on will get exciting. Once i pass this English Proficiency Test, I get to apply for the college I'm planning to go to. But I need good scores for that to happen... Of course I believe I can do good but I get distracted really easily. And god forbid, if I get distracted in this test right here, I AM DONE FOR! Anywho, I think I will take the time off to stare at this dorky-eautiful girl sitting in front of me now. Toodles!